MessED UP!!!

At last after a long time get some free time for writing

11 class has been a great mess for me .. I really spoiled it as career vise but as per experience it was at its best ,… it was very good decision for me to leave my old school because of some argument .

so joining in other was a totally great idea . got new friends that really helped me a lot with studies and were very good partners . they supported me encouraged me very much .

For one time t I was very depressed with studies and with the future life ahead but friends constant encouragement and support it was going good

Sometime it was being very difficult for me to manage time and give proper attention to studies ..it was not going great ..with little fear of of career ahead this thought put me in very depression mode….

their is a moment in every student life where he just give away with his life ….it seems a real good amount of pressure on a student mind that’s will fuck his thoughts for coming studies ….

currently I have finished with exams of 11^th and results are coming soon .. i hope to pass successfully but I think I will loose some marks and be getting failed ……

I don’t know what will be happening to me in these coming days ..i don't know what reaction will be given by my parents ……..

At this stage I fell very unsecured about coming days of my 12^th I am still not sure in what direction my life is going on right now …

I don’t know what I must expect from myself so that I can achieve it ..seriously …my dear some friends I don't need your fucking shit of your thoughts for my education career …..be careful I said only few friends …not all…especially mere bhai log …tum logo ko kuch nhi keh rha hu …

Keep your goddamn fucking thoughts with you only buddies , I don’t need them …..what I have to do remains with me only understand bloody helll!!!!!

Anger management is he only solution I want here ..family relatives and other have pissed my life ….

I really need some help to cool me down otherwise I will burst someday at anyone and I don’t want that day to arrive …

SO i am here waiting for my results and hope for the best guys ...

THANK YOU

Will really miss you guys

"AAj tere jarurat hai aur tu aaj yaha nhi hai "

And on a note i finally found out about the girl .

i was very happy .

that made my day certainly .

so bye bye now